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  her heart was the same as the heart of

  the earth and the heart of the universe.

  (awareness)

  thank you for making me happy

  thank you for supporting my happiness

  i am

  at my

  strongest

  when

  i am calm

  it is the things

  you say no to

  that really show

  your commitment

  to your growth

  when chaos is all around you

  the wisest choice is to create

  peace within you

  your peace shines outward

  and supports the creation

  of a new harmony

  (meditation)

  we live in a unique time, when fear-driven and hateful emotions are coming to the surface so that they can be completely released, so that we can create a new world where institutionalized forms of harm are no longer factors in our lives. as it works for the individual, it also works for the collective of humanity—we can’t heal what is ignored, nor can we live happily and freely if we continue running away from our own darkness.

  personally, my faith is in people. our courage to turn inward in the hope of uncovering and releasing all that stands in our way of becoming beings of unconditional love is what will bring harmony and peace to our world. unity with those around us is most possible when we become internally whole and loving. wisdom more easily flows through us when our minds and hearts are no longer reacting to the suffering of everyday life. this does not mean that we will become cold or distant; it means that we will learn to respond calmly to the inevitable changes of life without causing ourselves misery. we will learn to respond to life as opposed to blindly reacting to it.

  humans affect one another deeply, in ways that the world at large is just beginning to understand. when we begin healing ourselves, it sets off waves that connect us to those who have healed in the past and those who will heal in the future. when we heal ourselves, it gives strength to those who need more support to take on their own personal healing journey. what we do reverberates throughout time and space—like a rock thrown into a lake, the circles it creates move in all directions.

  as she looked into her past,

  she noticed that the road

  she had traveled was

  no simple straight line.

  her journey toward fully

  loving herself and the world

  was full of forward and

  backward movement,

  twists, turns, detours,

  and even some pauses.

  at times, she doubted her progress,

  her potential, and even

  her power to change.

  but today, with the

  wisdom of experience at hand,

  she knows she could not have gotten

  to where she is without every

  movement she has ever made.

  (experience)

  serious transformations begin

  with two commitments:

  the courage to try new

  things and act in new ways

  the honesty needed to no longer

  hide from or lie to ourselves

  the people

  with the power

  to move and act through

  unconditional love

  will be the healers and heroes

  of our planet

  (a new balance)

  interlude

  there was a woman who lived in a small town near a tall mountain. she had lived in her beloved town all her life. everyone in the community thought highly of her and appreciated her kindness and calm manner. she lived a quiet life and worked as any other normal person.

  those close to her knew that she was a dedicated meditator, that she sat silently for a few hours a day in deep self-observation. when they would ask her why she took meditation so seriously, she would simply respond by saying, “i like to learn and peace is important to me.”

  as time went by, her calmness continued to grow and a saintly radiance became apparent in her eyes—but only a few were aware that a great change had happened within her. a day came when she told those closest to her that she would soon be leaving the town to live by herself near the top of the mountain. when asked why she was leaving, she merely stated, “it is time for me to fully unlock my freedom.” some tried to dissuade her, but most trusted her and felt comfort knowing that the mountain was close by.

  a decade quickly and quietly passed. the people began thinking of her as their guardian angel because ever since she had moved up the mountain, the town had become calmer and more prosperous; they imagined that it might be from the good energy that she regularly emitted.

  there was a group of young people in the town who had vague memories of this woman who was slowly becoming a living legend. they were curious and hungry for wisdom from someone who had become a being of complete freedom. it had somehow become common knowledge that she had accomplished this goal. none of them had seen her since they were children, but they heard stories from people who would occasionally venture up the mountain to visit her. those who saw her would return to the town inspired and rejuvenated.

  one day the young people gathered their courage and decided that it was time to pay her a visit. they organized their questions, packed light bags for a short trip, and made their way to the mountain in hopes of sharing in the woman’s clarity.

  the following are a few of the questions and answers between the young people and the one who is free.

  they asked her,

  “how did you free yourself?”

  she answered,

  “by embracing my own power.”

  they asked her,

  “what does it mean to love yourself?”

  she answered,

  “it means to uncover and release whatever keeps you from true happiness; to love, honor, and accept every single part of you, especially those that are kept in the dark. it means to observe yourself continually with the utmost honesty and without judgment. loving yourself means striving to reach new heights of self-understanding so as to cultivate the wisdom that inner peace requires.”

  they asked her,

  “what is the key to saving the world?”

  she answered,

  “you. you are the key. heal yourself, know yourself, make yourself whole and free. release all limits so that your love can flow unconditionally for yourself and the world. this will open the heaven of your heart and it will guide you without fail.”

  they asked her,

  “why are we here at a time when

  there is so much misery and despair?”

  she responded,

  “because you answered the call. the earth signaled for heroes, and the heavens sent forth the ones who were most ready to grow and unleash their unconditional love. you’re here to shine the light of your own healing, to offer the world the gift of your balance and peace.”

  they asked her,

  “are you wealthy?”

  she responded,

  “yes. it took years to build, but now there is a palace in my heart that i have constructed out of awareness, calmness, and wisdom.”

  they asked her,

  “what is true power?”

  she answered,

  “true power is living the realization that you are your own healer, hero, and leader. it is when you share your truth with compassion and peace. your power grows when you make progress in your own freedom and wisdom. those who are truly powerful do not harm themselves or others; instead, they use their energy to enrich all they know with love.”

  self-love

  self-love

  is the begin
ning:

  an essential centerpiece

  that opens the door

  to unconditional love

  for yourself and all beings

  self-love is a sincere

  acceptance of the past

  an agreement to make

  the most of the present

  and a willingness to allow

  the best to occur in the future

  (wholehearted)

  self-love

  is the nourishment

  that gives us

  the clarity and strength

  to love others well

  self-love is personal evolution in action

  being honest

  with yourself

  is an act of

  self-love

  self-love

  is creating space

  in your life to heal

  your body and mind

  do not confuse self-love

  with thinking that you’re

  better than everyone else

  true self-love is accepting

  yourself for all that you are,

  especially the darkest parts

  the more we love ourselves, the more easily

  prosperity and miracles can flow into our lives

  self-love has the power to release all blocks

  through self-love we can travel the universe

  self-love is doing the work

  we need to do to be free

  self-love begins with the acceptance of where we are now and the history we carry, but it does not stop there. self-love is an energy we use for our own personal evolution; it is a meeting and balance of two critically important ideas: loving who we currently are and simultaneously transforming into the ideal version of ourselves. though these ideas may seem contradictory, they are both required for our ultimate success. without acceptance, our transformation into a happier and freer self would be highly difficult. why? because it is much harder to change and let go of what we hate.

  self-love helps us delve deeply into ourselves and release the patterns in our subconscious that impact our behavior and emotions. true self-love is when one understands that the inward journey is the path to freedom, that observing and releasing our inner burdens is what will make us feel lighter and more aware. self-love does not grow the ego; it does the opposite. it is our ego that carries the craving that causes our suffering—the incessant craving that rests at the center of the ego is the ultimate block that stops us from achieving freedom.

  since true self-love

  is the gateway

  to unconditional love

  for all beings,

  this must mean

  that many people

  in our world are suffering

  from a lack of self-love

  (the missing peace)

  your

  self-love

  is a

  medicine

  for the earth

  as your self-love

  grows stronger,

  so do the waves

  of change that

  you can create

  the beauty

  of self-love

  is that it can

  grow into the

  unconditional love

  that can end all harm

  with self-love, we have the determination and courage to move deeply inward using honesty as our guide. this inward movement transforms our being, dramatically enhancing our awareness of who we are, our understanding of the universe, and our capabilities as individuals. a beautiful result of this process is that our new sense of compassion toward ourselves does not end with us; it blossoms and flows outward into the lives of others and has the capacity, if consistently cultivated, to encompass all beings.

  this growing compassion becomes the centerpiece and active component of a love that knows no limits. unconditional love for ourselves and others completely respects our sovereignty as individuals and honors our power by no longer allowing ourselves to be harmed by anyone. this limitless love also gives us new grace and clarity that help us see ourselves in all other beings and better understand where they are coming from. it gives us the strength to treat all with kindness and support all in living lives in which they are no longer harmed.

  unconditional love can bring balance to our world. the clarity it produces can help us better understand the roots of harm and work to eliminate them so that all can have the external freedom needed to work on their own internal liberation. the greed and reactiveness that cause harm can be replaced with love as the primary motivator and responses of kindness as our principal form of action. to create this shift in our world, many will have to heal themselves deeply by doing their inner work, releasing burdens within themselves, and creating enough space so that their own self-love can breathe deeply and expand into unconditional love.

  as more expand into this field of greater egolessness, the world will shift with us and be significantly relieved of the greed that sits at the center of the imbalance that we currently experience. our love as a humanity does not need to be perfectly unconditional to change the world—every time our collective love grows, it creates a better future.

  understanding

  healing yourself will ask more of you

  more rest

  more self-love

  more letting go

  more time for learning

  more space for transformation

  more honesty about how you feel

  more time developing good habits

  more courage to try new practices

  more faith in yourself and the process

  more time cultivating your inner peace

  things to practice and integrate:

  unconditional self-acceptance

  not harming yourself or others

  patience without complacency

  giving without wanting

  i cannot

  make you happy,

  but i can

  commit to support you

  in the creation

  of your own happiness

  to expect another to resolve all of our issues and give us the happiness we desire is to expect to see the sunrise without opening our own eyes. it is to ask a river to give us nourishment without dipping our own hands into the water. another cannot answer a riddle that was only ever meant for our own minds to solve. the universe seeks to enlighten and empower us, thus it is only rational that we are our own greatest healers.

  happiness may seem elusive. try as we might, no matter our external setup, happiness will come and go. the sea of life flows between calmness and storms. either something outside of us will cause us some sort of struggle or something from within us will arise that is asking to be acknowledged and released. a human being is an accumulation of aversions and cravings, which periodically rise from the depths of our mind so that we can have the opportunity to let them go. why? because our nature is not to be full of burdens; we are meant to be light, free, open to the harmony of love and the wisdom of the universe.

  though happiness will come and go, we do have the power to deepen our experience of it and extend our time partaking in its heavenly nature. to do so requires effort on our part to enhance our relationship with ourselves so that we may discover all that impedes our contentment and release it from our being.

  while in the midst

  of serious internal growth

  respect your need to rest

  love is not:

  i will give this to you

  if you do this for me

  love is:

  i will give this to you

  so that you may shine

  true love does not hurt; attachments
do

  love cannot cause pain; attachments cause pain. we create attachments in our mind when we want to hold on to something or someone, or when we expect things to be a certain way. when the attachments that we create in our minds break, we feel their rupture deeply. how deeply depends on how much we identify with the image that we have created. when things happen contrary to these images that we hold dear in our minds, we feel pain from these attachments being stretched and broken.

  attachments are not a form of true love. unconditional love, selfless love, a love without expectations is a higher form of existence that creates no attachments or images. it is a state of profound egolessness. expectations and judgments are attachments that the untrained mind repeatedly creates, causing more knots and burdens that impede our happiness. the typical human mind is eclipsed by the delusion of ego; the ego separates, categorizes, and labels everything that it comes across, causing our discontent and misunderstanding.

  all mental tension comes from not letting go

  stress and anxiety are the children of attachment; they are both forms of craving that take us away from the present and into areas of imagination that steal away our peace.

  wanting always interrupts being

  peace makes you strong

  hate reveals your emptiness

  kindness feeds your happiness

  anger reveals your fear

  love makes you free

  how to lead yourself:

  1. develop a relationship with your intuition

  2. have the courage to follow its guidance

  i can only

  give to you

  what i have already